Come Down And Waste Away With Me...

Flashback On Fasting In Camp

2009-08-25T06:07:00.003+08:00

I still remember how miserable it was when I was still serving my NS during fasting month as a stay out personnel. Having to wake up at 0430hrs to have my pre-dawn meal then straight leave for camp and the first thing I did upon reaching was to change to my PT kit and go for a run. Not very pleasent when it's only 0745hrs and already I'm thirsty. The day will pass by in its slowest and when it came to falling out, there will be people who purposely delay us from going back and I end up breaking my fast on my way back home, in train. Believe me, no one spared a single fucking thought.

Gone were those days. It still makes me angry thinking about it. Angry on how powerless we were, how our voices only turn a deaf ear. I'm lucky enough that my BMT wasn't in the month of Ramadhan.

Thanks to all who did not wish me 'Happy Fasting' or ' Selamat Berpuasa' or 'Selamat Berbuka'. I can't stress enough how fake and so 'primary school' that sounds. When the time comes, don't bother wishing me Selamat Hari Raya with all your 'ku susun sepuluh jari tra la la bullcrap'. It feels so wrong asking for forgiveness just because it's Hari Raye. It can be done on any other normal day, why wait till Hari Raye? I'm cool with everyone, except for a handful who I will not forgive just yet, and I almost sure that everyone is cool with me.

I may be the most bitter but nice person you know.

Fenderson out...

Screwed

2009-08-20T15:35:00.002+08:00

I'm screwed. The next poly intake will only be on April 2010. What happened to having 2 intakes in a year? Ain't there suppose to be one on this Sept/Oct?

It's not that I didn't apply during my NS period. I applied thrice and got rejected for all of it. Apparently I chose the wrong course and school. I opted for courses that strictly require a GPA 3 while I have a GPA 2.7. It was my bad on not reading the finelines.

I don't know what to do next. People would say go 'find some work' or 'take up a short course'. Guess they're right. What other choices do I have? I'm 22 and still hopeless.

If I'm gonna be rejected again for the April 2010 intake, I'm gonna kill myself.

Fenderson out...

Geek!

2009-08-11T04:34:00.005+08:00

I got a new computer for my room and at this point of time I'm grateful to be a geek. Wireless keyboard and mouse, 32" LCD TV for monitor, connected to the internet wirelessly, view with HD display. The perfect rig that I always wanted. The cost are split between me and my brother and it's still expensive despite of absorbing 50% of the damage.

The perfect ORD present for myself.

With my NSF pay, I bought:
PSP
PS3 (cost split with my brother)
iPod Classic (160GB)
LG 32" LCD TV
Computer (cost split with my brother)

Moving out will be hell.

Thanks to Shakir for all your help and advice.

Fenderson out...

Identity

2009-08-02T04:06:00.003+08:00

Earlier today, we attended a study group conducted by Mr S at the National Library. I shall not reveal anything on what was discussed among the study group. Wouldn't wanna get any party in trouble.

The study group session make me question myself on my own identity. I'm a Malay. Both my parents are Malay. My maternal grandparents are Malay. My paternal grandparents are Javanese. I live in a Malay speaking family. I got a B4 for my O level Malay paper. I beri salam to my fellow Malay friends. I eat with my right hand, wipe my butt with my left. What I'm saying is, I'm still ethnically and culturally correct.

On the contrary, my iPod have not a single Malay song. Most of my send messages are texted in English. I don't watch Suria. I don't tune in to Warna or Ria. I wear baju kurung only on Hari Raya. I rather curse and swear in English. I have no idea who was Yasmin Ahmad. Last of all, I find people who are too Malay are weird. With all these said, the question I'm asking myself is; Does it make me less of a Malay?

Honestly, I don't care. Whatever that don't make me sound or look stupid, I'd go with it. Whatever that make communication go faster and smoother, I'd go with it. Whatever that is more entertaining and more engaging, I'd go with it. I don't feel in anyway this would affect my identity. It's the matter of preferences.

What important is, I'm not trying to be anyone. I don't dye my hair, get fancy phone, buy nice shoes just because everyone else is. My running, swimming, iPod, PS3 are all purely me.

That goes by the saying...

"Wanting To Be Someone Else Is A Waste Of The Person You Are" - Kurt Cobain

Also...

"Takkan Melayu Hilang Di Dunia" - Hang Tuah

And my favourite...

"If You Can't Convince Them, Confuse Them" - Harry S Truman

Hahaha...

Fenderson out...

ORD

2009-07-28T02:40:00.007+08:00

Oh yeah! My turn came to collect back my pink IC and get my Service Status changed from NSF to NSman. But I wasn't as excited as I thought I would be. My plan to start school after a month or two after ORD didn't work out and no, I don't wanna work just yet since I just got off from a hell hole.

My dad once said that ones character would either change for the better or worst after they have been through NS. I compared myself today and 2 years back and honestly don't see much different. I quit smoking after getting tonsillitis though. I wouldn't wanna wait for a cancer to make me quit, so yeah, figured that's the best time stop.

2 years passed in a blink. What changed? I wish I can count what changed while I'm in camp.

All the past aside. So what's am I doing now? Nothing much. I do still wanna pursue my diploma but have to wait till the next intake. So meanwhile, I plan to work out and carry on with my 2B license lessons.

This was received on the 24/06/2009 at 1405hrs.
'hmmmmm... i will say tat if u like her, u shudnt gv up.for now just give it some time. Maybe shes not ready to be committed. Tats why shes taking a stepback'

Forever in debt to your priceless advice.

Fenderson out...

About The Previous Entry

2009-07-20T17:49:00.003+08:00

Spend a good half an hour glimpsing through some of my previous entry. Couldn't help but fell sad. Sad on how people change and move on without looking back. Sad to know things wouldn't ever be the same again. Sad to know that I was actually happier 3 - 4 years back then today.

Where did all the simplicity gone to?

Fenderson out

About To...

2009-07-17T02:58:00.002+08:00

I was about to write an entry a couple of days earlier before ORD but then decide to change my page template instead and do some cleaning up on the unneccessary stuff.

An hour later, the new blog page is up and I got tired from editing it.

I'll leave the proper blog entry for another day.

Fenderson Out...

Promise Fromise

2009-06-07T19:18:00.003+08:00

I promise I will continue blogging after I ORD, which is like 6 weeks away. This is my personnel biography afterall.

Fenderson out...

Comic strip

2008-10-19T20:14:00.005+08:00

Comic strip drawn by Shakir on Windows Live Messenger on how much Firozi like to talk about NS stuff to me

Sundance film festival short clip award winner for '09, guaranteed

Fenderson out...

Attend C

2008-10-14T20:21:00.002+08:00

Attend C is MC in the Army term. I don't know why they need another name for it but yeah, it's the way it is.

I was down with fever. It was 37.7 degree celcius in the afternoon, then it hike up to 38.2 degree celcius that night. Got 2 days attend C/MC for that.

Mum nagged saying I got sick because I smoke, like to sleep late, like go back home late and etcetera. Dad simply said I tend to hit the shower immediately after a run when my body is still warm and when the sweat glands are still open, whatever that means.

Mum's nagging + Dad's theory = Parents still care

Needless to say, I do need a break from camp.
No, sorry, I mean I need to ORD.

Fenderson out...

Half Way There!

2008-07-27T19:13:00.001+08:00

1 MORE FREAKING YEAR BABY! WHOO HOO!

To Whom It May Concern

2008-02-22T00:00:00.003+08:00

I'm fucking 21. Do not fucking interfere on how I should decide to do things for I am mature enough. I'll seek for help when need one, else just back the fuck off.

I am tired when I get back home from camp and the last thing I need is people lecturing me the whole goddamn reason on why it is not good to take leave unnecessarily. The next thing I don't fucking need is people sniffing around my stuff just because they previously found a deck of poker card laying around in my room.

Fucking know your boundaries!

Welcome back teen angst.

Fenderson out...

21st

2008-01-13T18:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 21st FUCKING BIRTHDAY TO ME!

And that is how I treat myself. Now we just pray and hope that I have no NS related stuff to attend to on March 7.

Fenderson out...

221207 Chinaone

2007-12-29T09:27:00.000+08:00

Why Oh Fucking Why?

2007-12-02T02:30:00.000+08:00

From the following week onwards, I'll be a stay in NSF personnel with only 1 night off which is on Wednesday night.

Let me put it in a simpler term.

From the following week onwards, I'm no longer allowed to book out on weekdays (except Friday) and have to book in camp back by 2230hrs on Sunday. I'm only allowed to book out camp on Wednesday night only to do whatever I want outside but have to book in back at 2230hrs the same night.

Personnel with Staff Sergeant rank or above or married are allowed to stay out. Beautiful isn't it?

May the person who came up with this idea die a painful death.

Fenderson out...

Read Content

2007-11-19T20:26:00.000+08:00

CAN SOMEONE ORGANISE A CHALET PLEASE~!

OR A BBQ PIT AT EAST COAST PARK OVER THE

WEEKEND IF HAVING A 4 DAYS 3 NIGHTS CHALET

IS TOO TROUBLESOME~!

♠ ♣ ♥ ♦

Fenderson Out...

Long Live The Weekend

2007-11-16T20:23:00.000+08:00

Oh my God! Finally I have an undisturb weekends after so long. Still unsure how I'm gonna spend on this one but I need it so bad 'cos I'm just sick of being in camp.

My upcoming weekends will be interrupted however. Will be having live range on both Saturday and Sunday. Shooters who do well will get to put on the Marksman badge on their uniform and awarded with $200.

I'm after the money of course, then I'm gonna splurge it all.

Fenderson out...

Bloody Overdrive

2007-11-09T22:52:00.000+08:00

Today I went for blood donation. Probably saved some lives already without lifting a finger. My blood group is O+ for your information so yeah, it's up for grab for anyone. Just sat at the chair and let the nurse find my vein and poke it to transfer my blood to a bag. Didn't really feel any lightheadedness or giddyness or any related issue after everything's over. Probably need to donate a litre or so to feel the effect judging from the mass I have.

I figure giving blood is the best way to do something good unlike social work which take so much time but don't get paid a single cent. Maybe I should donate something else, like my sperm for example. That way I can see many little Fendies running around in the near future, then create my own army when they reach the age of 18. Perhaps one side of my lungs too. I'll grow a new clean lung so I don't have to breath so hard when I run.

Ok, the crazy talk stops here. I'm kinda pissed that my duty have to fall on a Saturday. Can't sleep late this weekend. Fuck!

The ultimate reason why I donated blood is because donor will get a half day off from camp.

Fenderson out...

Mob Manning

2007-11-04T16:30:00.000+08:00

First of all, I'll give you a quick idea on what is mob manning. Mob manning is basically reporting back to camp within 2 hours once the silhoutte green army man flashes on TV or movies or aired on radio with the codeword along. There's different stages of mob manning but I won't get there because it's very complex. Alright. Got it already you fellow young reader? Feel a little bit smarter now? Good. So next time when you ask me out on a weekend and I said I have manning, don't respond with a "Manning tu ape sia?!"

Here's the story. Our manning were scheduled on a day around this week. The NSF seniors already suspected it'll happen on weekends. We pack our field pack items, waterproofing and air tighting them. It was just plain tedious. Had an inspection yesteday, yesterday as in Saturday which means partial of my weekend wasted away in camp. I failed the inspection over an unimportant reason.

So we waited a little bit more at camp for the manning to be activated. But did it happen? No, it did not. Can already see my Sunday burnt off too. Today - which is a Sunday - I was forced to wait for the activation from the moment I woke till late afternoon but still no sign of green army man out on TV. Slept the whole afternoon through with the TV on and my handphone right beside my ear in case any incoming calls but no. Nothing fucking happened.

Good thing is I got to really rest up and recharge Like Paramore said, "Nothing compares to a quiet evening alone". Bad thing is, son of a bitch, I'm suppose to be out with her.

Fenderson out...

One Short Entry

2007-11-03T01:24:00.000+08:00

I stared at the screen for 15 minutes and can't come out with anything despite of the eventful week. Here's a picture from our late Hari Raya visiting.

Probably should kill myself for smiling like that for the camera.

Fenderson out...

The One Where I'm Too Lazy To Blog But Blog Anyway To Keep The Readers Happy

2007-10-21T23:12:00.000+08:00

It has been a week plus since Hari Raya started. Couple of stuff happened.

I'm legally no longer a probational driver since 26/07/2007 which means I no longer need to put on the tringle sign when I'm driving. This will tell other drivers that they shouldn't give a fuck about me since I'm good as the rest of the drivers, which I'm not. My family don't own a car so that somehow deteriorate on how well I drive. Ok, straight to the point. I got into an accident. To make things worst, it happened on the first day of Hari Raya while on the way to my grandmother's place, which was the first house we're heading to. Here's quick summary on what happened.

I was driving at PIE somewhere near Aljunied area. It was an auto tranmission car. Travelling at 90km/h. Pretty fast. Dad as the Vehicle Commander, the guy who instructed me what to do, a new term in Army I learnt. Road condition was wet since it rained in the morning. So I was driving still when this blue bike from the lane left zoom pass me, zoom pass the car in front of me then change to the lane I'm on. The car infront of my suddenly jam break. Shit happened when I've no time to stop and hit the car infront.

The tyre screech, car horn blaring and my mom's scream still linger around my head. Lucky enough no one was hurt else I'll be doing time in prison for a year. Anyway, we brought the car to the shoulder of the road and settle stuff. What actually happened was that the bike skidded and fell when he changed lane. That force the car infront of me to jam break and me not having enough time to stop and hit him. Now, imagine. What if the bike fell off infront me and I have no time to stop? Think the rider would be under the vehicle when I eventually get to stop the car.

I should have taken shots of the damage but was too shaken up that time. The driver of the car I hit was pissed 'cos it's a new car while mine was a rented. The bike rider's arm was bleeding but wasn't serious. Just scretches, lots of it. He couldn't restart his bike. Exchange contact number, took down plate number, took down date and time of the accident, tra la la. My dad was the one settled it all. Thought he's gonna kill me for the accident but no. Didn't even make a big hoo-haa when we're at our relatives place.

Another story happens at camp. I was confined from Wednesday till Saturday morning. It's all because we didn't prepare what's needed for an event. Wasn't my fault since I'm new there and have no idea what the hell should be done for any up coming event. Almost lose my mind. I had only a pair of clothing and limited sticks of cigarrate. You have no idea how bad my boxers smell by the end of confinement.

Events told weren't in detail 'cos I'm suppose to be in bed now and there's a sharp pain at my neck bone, whatever it's called. Goodnight.

Fenderson out...

Dok, Dah Nak Raye Dok

2007-10-07T22:02:00.001+08:00

Apologies for the mat-ish title entry. When you're in NS, you have to bring your intelligence a couple of notch down to fit in. Not saying that I'm smarter than the rest. Just that, I don't talk, behave and have the typical mind set like most do. We all like to admit that we're unique don't we?

For the first time since...forever, my bank account reach the four digit mark. All through the hardwork, torture and verbal abuse have been quite a paid off. I wouldn't say it's good since I get paid double by being a cleaner.

Mum suggested that I should give out duit raye this year. Maybe I should. Show that Abang Fendy has grown up, earning his own cash and will get a PS3 anytime soon. $2 each for the kids and my beloved schooling friends. I'm not stingy. I'm only earning $400 bucks per month for crying out loud.

Mum commented on my hair: Orang rambot panjang, tercacak-cacak bile raye. Kau botak. Nanti anak sedare ketawekan.

Well mum, I still love you.

Ramadhan will be over in less than a week. Proud to say I hardly miss Terawih prayers despite the tiring schedule. Please rent a car for raye dad.

Alright, time to hit the bed. Here comes another shitty week.

Fenderson out...

Another Update!

2007-09-30T15:59:00.000+08:00

Another update on my NS. I've been posted to Gloucester camp located opposite Ayer Rajah camp. A storeman still and there's no word to describe how much I hate it there.

See, I must arrive at 0700hrs everyday for a run since I fail my IPPT so that means I gotta leave house immediately after Subuh prayers. To make things worst, the seat on the train will be fully occupied even when it's still 0600hrs. So I gotta stand all the way from Eunos to Redhill. Rinse and repeat for 1 year and 10 month more.

You don't need to be a rocket scientist to be a storeman. Don't even need to pass your PSLE to be one. Never have I been assigned to a job this stupid. Never have my pride and ego been dragged down this low.

I forbid people from asking me 'How's work?'

The only good thing I can think of being assigned there is that I get to go home everyday.

Fenderson out...

Update!

2007-09-24T19:31:00.000+08:00

Ok here's an update. Yes I'm a storeman posted at Sembawang Camp but I'm not staying in which means I work office hour. The irritating part is the 1 1/2 - 2 hours journey back and forth. Something which still need getting use to.

Fenderson out...

London Bridge Is Falling Down And She's Taking Me Along As Well!

2007-09-21T18:57:00.000+08:00

The next phase of NS Army guys after BMT would be their posting. This would somehow determine how great or ridiculous their 2 years of NS life would be.

It was this morning when I got up and the first thing I did was to check my posting. When the page loads up, I took my time to absorb the information given. At the first read through, I manage to absorb that I'm posted at Sembawang Camp as a storeman which already sounds ridiculous enough.

You see, I never wanted to be a storeman nor a driver. Not a storeman 'cos I doubt I'll learn much there and not a driver 'cos I already have my class 3.

I took a second read through on my posting page, at a slower rate. At this point of time, I manage to absorb that I'm expected to stay in. That's when I feel like smashing my keyboard and put my head through the monitor.

2007 has been horrible for me. Quater 1 of the year was stupid. Quater 2 and quater 3 was awesome 'cos that's the time where I workout and did my BMT. Lost 15kg because of the workout. We're entering quater 4 of the year and it's the most stupid one for me.

I know I'm assuming stuff here but am I suppose to celebrate when I got a news that I gotta report at a camp placed far up north and my job is to store stuff and I can only go back on weekends? Fuck! I feel so cursed.

And forget about buying a PS3. I won't have a freaking time to play it.

I need a cigarette. Lotsa them for tonight.

Fenderson out...

How Well Do You Know Your Bands?

2007-09-17T14:43:00.000+08:00

There are 75 bands represented in this photo. Click to enlarge.

Here's a help out:
Guns N' Roses (left)
Rolling Stones (middle)
Alice In Chains (right)
Blur (beside Alice In Chains)

Happy hunting.

Fenderson out...

Bye Tekong Hello Ramadan

2007-09-13T14:26:00.000+08:00

And so after 7 weeks, I passed out from BMT bringing along memorable experience. As gay as it was to shower naked with other guys, to powder bath at the road with only underwear on with other guys, to sleep in the same bunk with 11 - 12 other guys, to sleep with 2 other guys on 2 joined beds, I realise that it was just parts and parcels of the army life. Of course the manly part comes when we did live range, live throw, field camp, road march and so on. I'll spare you the details.

Now we all wait for my posting.

While my platoon mates are playing soccer at Yio Chu Kang area at the moment, I'm at home 'cos it's the first day of fasting and I need to get use to it. Passing out from dehydration is the last thing I want. Fuck! I'm bored.

Guess I'll look in the mirror and watch my hair grow.

Happy fasting.

Fenderson out...

Attend C

2007-09-05T01:10:00.001+08:00

Oh man! It sure feels so damn good to be home on weekdays especially after I was confined for the weekend. Why I'm home? I'm down with fever, cough and slight runny nose. But fever is the main reason why I'm home. I guess there's not much thing to do so back at camp so I won't be missing out much. Just hoping that I'm allowed to do the 10km road march.

I'm not revealing any secrets, am I?

Fenderson out...

Echo Out Loud

2007-08-18T15:35:00.000+08:00

I'm beginning to accept that BMTC is my second home. Yes, i dislike it but what other choices do I have. Whenever I book out from camp, I'll take the train home and it'll pass by my previous school. Somehow it just reminds me on how badly I miss school.

PC won't let me go
Sergeant please let me go
Mummy I want to go ho~oh~ome~ah!

Fenderson out...

When The Cold Wind Blow

2007-08-08T21:46:00.000+08:00

I'm planning to tell on how has it been for me at Tekong but I'm restricted to do. Lets not get to the wrong side of the law shall we.

So anyway, everything has been great. I can't complaint much either. And uhh.. yeah. Think that's about it. Like I said, my mouth are shut and my hands are tied. I can't reveal anything. So, yeah. Bye.

Fenderson Out...

My Glory Story

2007-07-19T13:37:00.000+08:00

Alright, this is it. I got 1 week left of freedom before a new chapter begun. And this isn't any similar like your new stupid chapter like "tra la la, I got attach" or "boo hoo hoo, I broke up" or "blah blah blah, I hate school". This is "Goddamnsonavabitch, I'm off to army baby!"

I can't remember when was the last time when my muscles doesn't ache. Legs will hurt from the jogging and shoulder will hurt from the swimming. I'm getting tired of the workout and I somehow feel that I can't wait to start NS.

I served NCC for 5 years before, passed out as a Master Sergeant. Went to 3 days camp during sec 1 and sec 2, 4 days camp for Specialise course during sec 3 and 3 days camp for Unit Drill Instructor course during sec 4. Of course, NCC is nothing compared to NS but i learnt a couple of important stuff like how to tie the shoelace for boots, execute command correctly, march, strip rifle and so on. And believe me, striping a rifle is more challenging than striping a girl.

These are the people who workout with me during this pass few months. Thanks so much.

Name - Activity/Count
Bani - Jog/Once, Swim/Countless
Farisha - Swim/Once
Firozi - Swim/Once
Ilyana - Jog/Once, Swim/Once
Samir - Jog/Countless, Swim/Countless
Shakir - Swim/A handful

Hell yeah! I remember alright. Thanks to Hanisah who convince me that jogging is better than swimming. I did both after we debate about it. Thanks to Iskandar for giving me the highlight on what's roughly gonna happen there.

On a side story, dad bought a 42" LG plasma television and my brother bought a 2nd hand PSP for himself. Wow, that will definately make me not miss home. My guitar and this 19" widescreen monitor I'm starring at. Yeah! Definately will not miss home.

To those who hardly meet me up, don't give me your "Eh, I'm gonna miss you seh!" Save your bullshit for someone else who actually believe it.

Oh well, lets not make too big a deal about it. All I'm asking is for the Fendy's 8 not to change too much. And of course Foo Fighters don't perform live here while I'm away, else I swear I'll swim back from Tekong to watch them play.

Welcome to S'pore Dave & Nate. Can't wait for the album release.

Fenderson out...

I Rate 2/5

2007-07-12T07:37:00.000+08:00

As cute as she's getting, I'm completely disappointed with the show. That's 8 bucks and 3 hours of my life I'm not getting back.

Fenderson out...

Bridge

2007-07-11T09:41:00.000+08:00

F: 133211
G: 32001
C: 03201
Am: 002210
Em: 022000

(F)And it may take (G)some time to

(C)Patch me (G)up in(Am)side

(F)But I can't (G)take it so I

(Em)Run away and (Am)hide

(F)And I may (G)find in time that

(C)You were (G)always (Am)right

(Em)You're always (F)right (G)

Dammit! I can't seem to get this right.

Fenderson out...

This Is Dry

2007-06-28T17:28:00.000+08:00

So I told you that I got a new PC, set it up, connect it to the internet wirelessly right? Apparently I wasn't connected to my own router. Yeah it's gotta be the guy who lives upstairs or downstairs who owns Linksys router too. The signal is pretty strong.

Unauthorized connection to the wireless router is the same as stealing bandwidth from the other party and if the IDA finds out, you'll be charged of course. The thing is, the guy who steals bandwidth will be charged but not the guy who didn't secure his network. Oh well, who am I to lecture you guys on stealing eh?

"It's not filesharing, it's stealing." Give me a break wouldcha?

It's not that I don't wanna get connected to my own router, it just that I can't 'see' it. It's probably hidden from the public and that includes me too.

Ok fuck it. It's really dry talking about this. It's goddamn fucking technical and I'm not sure you understand any of it. Maybe I'll just rtfm (read the fucking manual) and hope everything works.

I don't know how the hell I passed my Wireless Technology course. Help me if you think you're able to.

Fenderson out...

Tick Tock!

2007-06-27T00:53:00.000+08:00

Today is the 27th June, which means I have exactly 1 month left till 2 years of my life will be taken away by the Govt. The reason why the recent entries are mostly pictures and video is because I'm too lazy to construct a sentence. A proper one that is.

Dad bought a new Dell PC. It's running on Vista Premium, 2 AMD Athlon processor but sadly only 1GB ram. Exchange the current PC's 17" monitor to the new 19" widescreen monitor and it totally rock my fucking socks. I set up the new PC, connect it wirelessly to the router and never have I been more proud of myself.

I bought a guitar from Hidir. Retail price $300 bucks, I got it for a hundred from him. Never thought my first guitar would be a second hand but at the same time never thought my first guitar would sound so sweet. It has a couple of scratches 'cos Shakir is careless. Now I gotta get a guitar bag, a tuner, a capo and master the F chord.

Poly have reopen and I'm already bored with working out alone. Samir will for sure tell me his glory story on how guilty he feels for not working out for a long time and how much he had for dinner. Eh Samir eh? Macam gini nak jadi Spartans!?

Aww crap! I ran out of things to say.

Fenderson out...

300

2007-06-23T20:01:00.000+08:00

Before there was 300, there was the training.

Would somebody get me that big ass tyre so i can flip it around when I'm bored?

Fenderson out...

Fendy's Seven

2007-06-14T10:03:00.000+08:00

This is them...

...and them again without the ladies...

...and a Happy Meal smile.

Fenderson out...

20.9FM

2007-06-06T16:38:00.000+08:00

Sick of hearing the same old song over the radio? Tired of the songs in your iPod? Had enough of hearing people bithcin' on radio calls? Finds that Top 10/20/100 Countdowns are ridiculous. Need something random and up all night? Tune in to 20.9FM where the DJ has thousands of track to spin. Hate Rihanna - Umbrella? Request to skip it. Have an ear worm? Request a song to cure it. Love the track that's playing? Request for it. It's all happening only at 20.9FM. Tune in Bitchez!

20.9FM was founded by 2 overbored people and a computer with technical difficulties that we can't explain. Only 1 listener can tune in at a time 'cos that's how MSN allows it.

Fenderson out...

Hello June!

2007-06-01T20:59:00.000+08:00

This art piece was done by a 19 years old boy who thinks he's Picasso. Very nice, how much?

Today is the first of June, the month where most of my batch will be going to NS. They have a couple more days left before 2 years of their life will be taken away. As for me, I have less than 2 months before I'm called in. Shit!

Fenderson out...

Grungies Mermaid Man Unite!

2007-05-26T06:21:00.000+08:00

One baby to another says -
I'm lucky to have met you
I don't care what you think
Unless it is about me
It is now my duty to completely drain you!

Schedulisation

2007-05-21T01:05:00.000+08:00

The 2 new latest albums that everyone should listen to:

My life has been stagnent lately. Nothing seems to be happening. I'd make plans but then again most of my friends are on their last year for their tertiary school. They're probably too busy and bothering them is not what I want.

The latest change is the new coat of paint covering the walls of my house. For my room, 1 side of my wall is a certain shade of purple and the other 3 walls are super light pink. Some of the furnitures have been shifted and my room looks pretty empty. It makes me feel like living in a dollhouse. All I'm trying to say is that, I fuckin' hate it.

Besides that, my workout plan is to jog around the big ass Ubi field for 2 rounds at 0600hrs and to swim for at least an hour at night. Of course, I'm not too strict on the schedule and always welcome other plans when it comes. I'm no health freak. The smoking and the not-much-restriction on the intake is still on.

My Sunday has been pretty much fucked. Swimming pool was crowded with people who just wanna cool themselves down from the hot weather. The water feels strangely a little bit too warm and I'm thinking; could it be because of the weather or the amount of people or the amount of pee in it? Then again, everyday I wake up is a Sunday. May tomorrow be a better one. What's a perfect Sunday for you?

On another story, I have a friend who's seeing a married guy. Of course there's more story to that, like the guy's marriage ain't working out and he has 2 kids and yada yada yada. The question is, why would someone choose a fucked up, complicated life?

And there's a new rule in town. If you wanna swear over my tag board, please do it right. Don't asterisk over the word to censor it as if people can't make the word out. What are the chances of people thinking the word F*** is Fish or Foot or anyother4letterwordthatstartswithanF? Just do it loudly and proudly. Fuck you! The other sentence you can say loudly and proudly is of course, MY COCK IS MUCH BIGGER THAN YOURS!

Fenderson out...

Corrupted/Unreadable

2007-05-16T07:23:00.000+08:00

Oh God! My PC can no longer read my HDD. All of my beloved series has been wiped out completely. It says "L:\ is not accessible. The file or directory is corrupted and unreadable." Fuck!

Prison Break: Complete season 1 & 2
Lost: Complete season 1 & 2. Third season running.
Heroes: Season 1 running
Family Guy: Complete season 1, 2, 3 & 4. Fifth season running.

And of course the greatest folder of all would be 'Cinematics'. Yeah, it's fucking gone too.

I'd download everything back but it's not like I'm gonna watch it all over again.

Ares, Limewire, iMesh and all other software alike blows. It's BitComet and µTorrent (micro torrent) era now.

Fenderson out...

Meaty Day

2007-05-10T03:24:00.000+08:00

A big thanks to Yat who're so kind to treat us at Seoul Garden. Almost chocked when I saw the total amount was 116 bucks. Didn't know you love us that much. Couldn't help but feel bad. But then again, like you said, maybe in the future when we have lebih rezeki we will do the same thing also.

Have fun working. You're the first I know to have a full time job after school.

Fenderson out...

Honor Thy Father

2007-05-09T07:15:00.000+08:00

It was 2 days since my dad had an operation for gall stone (batu karang). I wasn't much worried when gotta know he's gonna have an op for that though that was so naive of me.

My heart shatters when I saw him on the hospital bed looking all weak with needle and tube attached to his arm. I fought back every drop of tears that's gonna roll down my eyes. Never thought I would see him this way.

With every ounce of strength he have, he talked to us softly. Meal untouched. Doesn't even look like he can get up on his own. Weird thing is, he's thankful for it is not heart attack or high blood preassure.

Nurse came in soon enough to check his Godknowswhat. We left the ward, I had an eye shut at the waiting room for an hour plus while listening to the whole songs in Skin and Bones.

Get well now dad, not soon, now!

On another story, I'm beginning to hate my brother. He's willing to compromise family for friends. He's willing to leave house at 0600hrs to go to the airport to meet his friend who just arrive here but when come to visiting my Dad, he becomes reluctant and start giving reason. He's 17 and can't set his priority right. I don't remember being that stupid at that age.

Fuck you man. Sure you're not as rebelious as I am, don't smoke, have not been to club, don't hang out till late and don't do all those ridiculous things I do but you're 1 ungrateful piece of shit and I hate you for that.

Ughh, suddenly so angry. Gotta chill.

Fenderson out...

Childhood

2007-05-06T02:33:00.000+08:00

So I was searching for songs that're easy to play on the guitar and a friend of mine mentioned about pop songs. The first band and song that crossed my mind was...

This was the kinda song I grew up with man. Sure grunge ruled the early 90's but I wasn't exposed to any of them. I still remember rushing back from my religious class on Sunday just to catch a glimpse of MTV Asia Countdown on Channel 5. Even bought their VCD, watch it over and over again till I memorise their choreography.

I must be one happy kid. With no idea of the date to NS, who wouldn't be happy.

Of course, I have a little pop in me left. Now it's all about rock.

So, what song did you grew up with?

Anyway,
Happy 22nd Anniversary Mom and Dad. Thanks for not waiting me up for the dinner and not letting me drive the rented car. I may not say or show how I feel but I do love both of you. Keep topping up my bank account and don't interfer in my life too much and I love you even more.

Fenderson out...

*

2007-05-05T02:39:00.000+08:00

New Phone Baby! / Me Into NS

2007-04-22T04:07:00.000+08:00

So I got a new phone. Sony Ericsson W810i and just gotta know that the W series is a walkman phone. So I got an iPod and a walkman phone. Oh, the redundancy. Should've done more research before my parents got it for me. Both siblings got a N73 which kinda make me wonder why didn't I chose the same phone.

N73 has got a lil' bit more megapix than W810i. N73 has got louder speaker than W810i but like Miss Pandai Bandung said, "need so loud for what?". N73 is a 3G phone which W810i isn't.

N73 is bulky. W810i isn't. N73 lag when switching between application. W810i doesn't.

Well, I just hope that what Miss Pandai Bandung mentioned about Sony Ericsson are true.

CNET rate: N73 7/10, W810i 8/10.

Enough about phone review.

I got into army for NS. Going in late July. Still considering whether I should invite my friends for my big send off to Tekong. I hate long goodbyes and will probably cry once it gets too emotional.

Yeay Fendy jadi army.
Bang bang bang. Who died?
Bang bang bang bangbus.

Oh man, I'm sure scared.

Fenderson out...

I Don't Owe You Anything!

2007-04-19T02:36:00.000+08:00

There! All fines paid. Now, let us march to their workplace, stand on their desk and scream to the chorus of I'll Stick Around to those motherfuckers in the face.

The only reason I often go JB is because the cigarettes and CDs are cheap. But then again, I can no longer use concession pass 'cos my student pass is kinda expired. Guess the next trip won't be anytime sooner.

Thanks to those who were in the deep shit with me. Thanks to that City Square security guard dude who showed us the correct direction. To those who fined us, I got tired of cursing and swearing you people, so yeah, go get some other job or something.

I'm not gonna cover on how we found the damn place to pay the fines 'cos it's way too long. The officials there sure are as clueless as we are when they were asked about the location we're searching for.

What the fuck man! Sure it's easy to fine us but when asked where's the location to settle our fines you people simply said 'I don't know. I'm in charge of the traffic' or 'It should be at Kota Raya' or 'It should be at Larkin'. A sentence which include the word should isn't convincing enough dammit!

Where the fuck is Larkin? Do I look like I wanna take a look around your country at that point of time? Do I look like I have cash to pay for the cab fare who doesn't even use the meter fare?

Fuckin' disgraceful. You should've known better.

Fenderson out...

Happy Friday 13th!

2007-04-13T03:03:00.000+08:00

Hi! Despite all the warmth I got from my friends at the chalet, I'm now feeling very lonely and cold. It wasn't as bad as it is now before chalet. Maybe the social interaction reduces too much. I don't know. They gonna start school next week and I'm gonna stuck at home still. Gonna lose my mind. Ok enough bitching already.

Happy Friday 13th! Remember not to be too supersticious.

Fenderson out...

Eucalyptus

2007-04-12T17:47:00.000+08:00

I was planning to let the picture to do the talking but it seems that we were too busy having fun that we forgot to take much of it.

Anyway, the 3 days 2 night chalet at Aloha Loyang was fuckin' awesome. But every chalet won't be complete without the fucked up feeling. But then again, it was good. I'm too lazy to cover every details.

For some reason, I just felt fucked up by the end of day 3. Could be the fact that I only had an hour of sleep before the big rush of packing up or maybe the fact that a guess crash the party, got drunk, puked and stench the whole toilet. But most of all, I'm just sad. Sad cos' this might be the last chalet before I'm called in for NS. Being on the guest list and just turn up for the barbeque night isn't as fun as organising and do whatever you wanna do.

Thanks to everyone that made it happened. IF (a big IF there) there's any chalet in the future (not that I expect it anytime sooner), we'll take 4 days 3 nights. 3 days 2 nights is just not enough. The longer the duration is, the better.

Anyway, a different story now, I went to my bike pratical lesson earlier. It was raining quite heavily. As usual, take number tag, submit book, do warm up, gather and listen to instruction, start bike, move off, form single row.

While on a single row, I was on third gear and looking at the speedometer needle moving up without realising the front bike slowed down. I was moving too fast, so I panicked, jam the front break to avoid crashing to the front guy. That's where the front wheel skidded and I fell.

They say that every rider will kiss the floor at least once. I may not be a licensed rider but hey, I had my share. Chin hit the floor and bleed, arm bruise, nothing serious. Got back up and continue riding.

Don't know what else to tell ya.

Fenderson out...

Fuckin' Fine

2007-04-04T15:40:00.000+08:00

I was away to JB with Firozi previous Tuesday to get my usual stuff. Who whould've thought that one single trip could fucked up so bad till I feel that God is picking on me. Yeah sure there was the usual situation where the bus is fuckin' late or the trip to Woodlands via train is damn far. But that's not the case which made me hate everyone.

See, I was fine for littering again. Yes, again. It happened at JB this time. What did I litter? Cigarette butt of course. The fine was 250RM. Manage to drop it to 50RM by convincing them. That's about S$25 which is laughable when you're fine for that amount here. 25 bucks is still money and I don't have any for now.

That's the third fine I received so far.
1st fine - 17 years old - Caught for buying cigarette - $30
2nd fine - 20 years old - Caught for littering cigarette butt - from $200 to $135
3rd fine - 20 years old - Caught for littering cigarette butt - from 250RM to 50RM

Shit! Come to think about it, it all gotta do with cigarette. Well, fuck that! Think I'm gonna travel the world and get caught for littering in every country.

When Wednesday came, it all went good again. Pass my bike practical 3, moving on to practical 4. Went to China One and somehow the crowd yesterday rocks. A set to remember that is.

Played Truth Or Dare. Jolene was dared to kiss Bani after a song, which is very easy. Shakir was dared to go up to a table and ask whether they have any song request, which is somehow scary. I was dared to dance to the chorus of 2 Become 1, which I think is insane but took up the dare. Then the 3 of us dropped the dare and decide to carry it on for some other time. Big fuckin' relief I was. It was a big crowd when they started playing 2 Become 1.

Plus, we learnt some nasty facts about each other. Good way to tighten our bond and feel awkward when we're near each other eh?

Got back to our place. Played some taiti, strum some guitars, policemen arrived at 0400hrs saying there was a complaint regarding noise, which we didn't make but probably did. That's the part where I hate everyone, a lil bit lesser this time.

Fenderson out...

China One

2007-03-30T01:14:00.000+08:00

We were at China One on Tuesday night.

That's Bani and Siraj...

... and that's Shakir and me.

Hmm, Jolene's pic wasn't taken. Wonder why.

Fenderson out...

King Of The Castle

2007-03-27T06:07:00.000+08:00

And so that was the third time I've watch Foo Fighters live at Hyde Park and it still gives me the goose bumps. Some things I noticed;

85000 fans turned up for Foo and there's no way Singapore can occupy 85000 people for a concert. At least that's what I think. How big is 85000 screaming crowds? It's as far as the eye can see.

Chris Shiflett wore a red chequered long sleeve shirt which looks like a table cloth design but he still looks cool. Why? Cos' he's a westener dammit. To all asian kids, stop trying 'cos you won't be as cool as they are. You'll be more of an eye sore if you try too hard.

Everlong isn't complete without thousands of screaming fans for the opening and a sing-a-long during the chorus.

And I wonder when I sing along with you,
If everything could ever feel this real forever.
If anything could ever be this good again,
The only thing I'll ever ask of you.
You gotta promise not to stop when I say when.
She sang.

So much about Foo, lets get back to me. I'm learning to play the guitar. Still at the novice stage. Learning to play Chasing Cars. What inspires me? I don't know. Went to Shakir's place few days back, saw his guitar, pick it up, went to a site that teaches how to play guitar and then here I am, hoping that I own a guitar so that I can practise wheneve I can.

Why do I need $135 bucks? Here goes. Gotta hide some information cos' it might lead to the wrong person. Me and 2 others were on our way to somewhere. So as usual we smoke before making our way to our destination. And where did we throw the cigratte butts? The nearest area where the eyes can't see which in this case; in the bushes. We were stopped by a couple of(insert curse word here) and were fine for littering. Supposedly it's 200 bucks each, which sum up to 600 bucks but those (insert curse word here again) decide to cut us the little-est slack ever by fining us 400 bucks total instead. Do your maths and that brings to around 135 bucks each. So, yeah. Fuck!

My upcoming bike practical lesson 3 gonna be the third attempt. Had a little accident previously while doing the figure 8 course. Was focusing too much on nailling the requirement of hitting below 11 seconds but went too fast and overshot to the grass patch instead. Had mud splatter on my pants. So, yeah, fail, waste time and money. Fuck!

Yeah I tend to curse a lot when things doesn't go my way. Whatchagonna do about it huh? Fine me? Fuck off! Here, eat my fist!

Anyone wanna swim with me?

Remember kids: He who laughs last, laughs the loudest.

Fenderson out...

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2007-03-18T16:09:00.000+08:00

Hi! If you love me please kindly send over $135 (only cash or cheque accepted).

P.S: So much for your 'Good things happen to good people'. Yeah! Fuck that too.

Fenderson out

Bye ITE Simei

2007-03-14T17:50:00.000+08:00

About 5 - 6 months ago, during my industrial attachment at Panasonic, I was dying to go back to school. Why? Cos' it was a big bore there.

When school reopen, I was all excited and the eagerness to go to school was always there. Why? Not important.

However, the eagerness died around late January. Why? Not important too.

At that point of time, I just wish that I could just fast forward time and hope that the pain would just die off but of course, I can't do that. So what did I do? Well, I just dreadfully dragged myself to school while praying that the end of my ITE days would end really fuckin' soon. Why do hate school so much at that point of time? Cos' I don't see any reason for me to turn up anymore. There's nothing left for me there, 'cept to complete the course.

Today, I sat for my paper. The last paper of them all. Soon after the paper, we had our lunch but sadly the pack was incomplete but whatever. Afer lunch, I made my way home, alone + easy target. Took the usual route, went to my usual spot to smoke and drink my milk tea, never fail to reminisce the old days. That's where I feel a little sad and wish I could rewind time and redo the whole thing again.

My sincere thanks to all those who had made my 2 years of school as something to be valued of.

I've lost my value and it's time to return to my roots.

P.S: Separation sucks, that's why I'm emo. Now, where's that razor of mine?

Fenderson out...

Grunge!

2007-03-05T01:04:00.001+08:00

Keep Your Music To Yourself

2007-03-05T00:59:00.000+08:00

Why, oh why does everyone wants to be the DJ these days? I don't remember asking for one. Why can't they just stuff in their earphones and keep their 'ridiculous - undesired - to - listen - by - many' kinda music to themselves? Does a bus look like a club to you? Do I look like I wanna dance and grind someone when I'm heading home? It's already bad enough that your HP sound system suck donkey balls yet you still have the cheek to blast that punny 1.0 sound system of yours. Stupid fuck.

Why am I so angry? Oh ya, bad quality songs just are just fuckin' annoying.

Fenderson out...

Brought To You By The Letter E

2007-02-19T00:27:00.000+08:00

What the hell. Now Google bought over Blogger. Just recent ago I heard over the radio they bought over YouTube. Had a hard time figuring out how not to create an extra unnecessary redundant account but no, I gotta create 1 to log in and blog. Fuck. Welcome to the Dog Eat Dog World everyone!

Anyway, here's my first Photoshop piece:

Very amateur huh. That's because I am. Damn thing drained my brain juice dry. Will create more once inspired.

16/2 - After weeks of planning to go to Zouk, eventually it was cancelled. Why? 'Cos there's lack of participant and there's also the money issue. Replaced it with another plan which is to ride (bicycle, not motorbike) to East Coast Park at 0030hrs but that didn't happen too. Why? 'Cos I 'gotta' fall sick, Hidir said he feel sicky too and there's only 3 bikes and 4 of us. Yeah cancel. New plan came up which is to head to China One. They went on without me 'cos I don't think I can even lift my head up at that point of time. Took Panadol Extra and it work like a charm. Recoved the day after.

17/2 - 0000hrs. The Grungies headed to the infamous Red Light District also known as Geylang. Yeah baby. I feel naughty! It's just like any other red light district. I don't know what's more to tell. After we had enough with the touring, we walked home.

Y'know, it's great to walk super crazy long distance when the weather is cool, not raining and not carrying any heavy load. However, it's people like Samir who just love to spice things up by having the sudden urge to say things like "Sape cross road dulu paling handsome" (who cross the road first is the most handsome). That's where we made our sprint then got tired later. Had a long non-stop jog from area under PIE highway to 7/11 at Ubi. Damn! It was an awesome.

18/2 - Oink Oink! Body aching. Stayed at home.

Fenderson out...

Recent Stuff

2007-02-13T00:03:00.000+08:00

Hey there reader. Just to let you know that I've lost the will to blog frequently. What's new? Nothing much. I'll recall, you read on.

NAPFA last Tuesday - I normally would skip NAPFA 'cos I know I'm gonna fail but this time I just went for the sake of wanting to run the 2.4km. Yeah I failed but what the hey, it was a good run but I paid by having muscles ache for a couple of days.

First bike pract - Had my very first bike pract. It was good. Wasn't as difficult. Ignition, start engine, clutch in, first gear, throttle a little, find biting point and move off. Sadly I failed 'cos the intructor said we didn't get the chance to try out all stations. So gotta come back again for the same pract and pay $23+ bucks more. Fuckin' rip off!

Cross Country last Friday - School send us over to East Coast Park for cross country. Distance: 3.8km. Yeah the run was again good. The walk home was ridiculously far. From area F to area C. Didn't went to Friday prayers. Slept instead to recover the energy loss. Woke up and saw a helmet on my study table. Yeah!

2nd try for 1st pract - And I passed! Move on for the 2nd pract.

Weekends - Met Yana that afternoon, met Shakir and Hidir later that night. Badly need to have our good old chalet gathering. I'd say chalet for a week, but that's crazy. Or is it?

If you're good at Photoshop, please do teach me. I don't intend to be a designer but it's good to have that extra skill.

I killed a mosquito and it spilled my blood.

Dad, you gotta quit telling me not to smoke at home 'cos I'm just gonna anyway. It'll only be a couple of years left till I move out and live with my friends so please bear with it.

Hanging on Here until I'm gone I'm right where I belong Just hanging on Even though Watched you come and go How was I to know You'd steal the show? One day I'll have enough to gamble I'll wait to hear your final call Bet it all Hanging on Here until I'm gone Right where I belong Just hanging on Even though I pass this time alone Somewhere so unknown It heals the soul You ask for walls I'll build them higher We'll lie in shadows of them all I'd stand but they're much too tall And I fall

February stars Floating in the dark Temporary scars February stars

Urgh! Super wordy entry.

Fenderson out...

Electronica/Dance

2007-02-06T01:32:00.000+08:00

After months of search and couple of days wait, I'm finally the proud owner of:

Yeah! Credit to Jolene & Hidir.

This will definately bring back the old DXO days where Shakir, Hidir and me would chill at The Nest at 0200hrs+, smoking and having Sprite while listening to this fuckin' awesome compilation. Oh yeah! Those were the days alright. The good times. But sadly, DXO days are over when Hidir contract to perform at DXO ended. So yeah, I don't see any more reason to head there and the 18 bucks entry charge is kinda painful. No need for DXO, head to my place, experience the same music and have some Sprite. Can't smoke when my parents at home. Sorry. Aww fuck, I sure do miss The Nest ambience.

If you're the country pumpkin, house cat or sea bass type and have no idea of the terms I'm using, here goes;

DXO - A club located at Esplenade
The Nest - An outdoor balcony on the second floor of DXO
Sprite - A type of soft drink
You - Understand?
I - Grunge!

Yeah!

The following might not be appropiate to include in the same entry but I don't really care.

Dear God,
Find me peace
Grant me strength

Fenderson out...

One Two Buckle My Shoe

2007-01-27T18:53:00.000+08:00

It has become a tradition for The Grungies to get together for a meal and a few rounds of taiti every Friday & Saturday. We do hang out on other days too but on a rare occation, whatever the occation may be.

26/1 Friday: Hidir gotta go jamming with Youth Wreck so Shakir came up with the idea of tagging along so he and I unshyly invited ourselves to the studio, with Hidir permission of course. The studio is Joo Chiat area.

Bright neon lightings. Pub blasting out horrible karaoke songs. Hookers with skimpy clothing. Bangla dudes loitering around, waiting to get a good deal I assume. Old dudes having their meals and happily drinking away with a couple of hookers. A sex shop called Black Rose. That's Joo Chiat for you. I was tempted to 'have some fun' but only had 10 bucks. Crap!

To the jamming part, it was loud and awesome. Test, test, testicles. One, two, buckle my shoe.

After Youth Wreck end their jam, we mess around a lil and did some songs. Me on the mic sang to some Foo Fighters and Splender - I Think God Can Explain. Yes, I do sound like crap but what the hell, just having fun eh and it was fun alright!

The fun was cut short when Shakir and I had a miscommunication; he thought I brought the cards and vice versa and Shakir and Hidir badly need to poop. It was 0400+hrs, they need to poop, no cards so we headed home.

High chance of us heading to Zouk on Feb 16th or 17th. Anyone? Hot girls only. Not much of a requirement eh?

Farisha gave me a compliment saying my entries are well written with JC standard English. I don't know 'bout that but I do welcome compliments. Thank you and all the best for your TP.

Fenderson out...

Being 20 In 2007

2007-01-24T01:51:00.000+08:00

Something is wrong. Could it be my age? The year or month perhaps? Or maybe the positioning of the stars up there are all messed up? What about those ghosts? Do they want more offering or something? Karma? I don't know alright, but whatever it may be, things have been going downhill from here and the world is upon my shoulder again.

If what you're thinking right now is 'oh crap, he's gonna complain again. Get a life.' well then just fuck off!

So much for my teenage angst, let's get to the story.

I'm having depression over an emotional issue. Hope you get what I mean. You don't? Tragic love and a lil' bit more to that. Got it? Lets leave it that way.

I don't get what my lecturer is trying to teach. Both theory and practical class equally blows 'cos the topics on DNS are bloody dry and I'll go brain dead. No way I'm doing case study 8.

Can't play Skin and Bones on my 5.1 'cos my CD drive stutters.

Dad bought a new digicam for my sis and gave 50 bucks to my bro for him to buy something. Nothing for me. I don't recall me being that pampered when I was their age.

Think that's about it. Seems a little but they're enough for me to lose my mind.

How do I kill depression?
Pray
Cry
Smoke
Stare into space
Talk to some trusted friends
Get lost in Simpsons or Family Guy cartoon
Listen to some crazy grunge music
And just fucking grunge!

How 'bout you? How do you kill depression? Do you cut your wrist with a razor then parade it all over the net to gain sympathy? You do? Oh well, whatever makes you happy.

Sweet and divine
Razor of mine
Sweet and divine
Razor blade shine

Fenderson out...

~

2007-01-20T05:43:00.000+08:00

Guess I'll just grunge my way through. Just fucking grunge all the way through till it's all over. Not the first time it happen so it won't be that difficult. Just grunge, grunge, grunge and more fucking grunge. Nothing else. Yana too is at the same ride as I am. Oh well, we grunge right Yana? Right? Right? Not emo cos' emo blows. GRUNGE!

Fenderson out...

Foo At Hyde Park

2007-01-20T04:53:00.000+08:00

It's like 0515 hours at the moment. BitComet is certainly taking its time to download Foo Fighters - Live at Hyde Park but the photo shots are done so I'll share it with you suckers. Enjoy!

Wish I was there!

Fenderson out...

Night Near The Monument

2007-01-18T00:48:00.000+08:00

20!

2007-01-14T06:51:00.000+08:00

13th Jan

Hello big 2!

First of all, thanks to everyone who wished me. A bigger thanks to Bani, Firozi, Shakir and Yana for the great hang out. A biggest thank to my mom for giving me the one and only present which is a blue note with the face of our first president on it. Yeah!

Guess I won't be getting my iPod player wrapped in a black SUV for my birthday. Oh well, things could have been worst.

14th Jan
Happy Birthday Dave Grohl!

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary

Come to Singapore already man!

Fenderson out...

And...

2006-12-29T03:26:00.000+08:00

Woke up this morning and guess what's the first thing I see on the desk? A FREAKIN' WHITE CRUMPLED PACKAGE. It was neatly placed there so I just grab it and tried to tear it apart it but to avail. Gotta be some magic wrapping. Manage to open it up by the seal and there it is right in front of my eyes, the long awaited FOO FIGHTERS T-SHIRT! YEAH BABY!

Ship From:
Foo Fighters

Address:
7095 Hollywood Blvd.
#1190
Hollywood, CA 90028
United States

Ship To:
Muhammad Effendy

Address:
You don't expect me to state my address here don't you.

Awesome ya! So anyway, I went with Firozi to Sim Lim earlier. He bought 160GB internal HDD and a all format CD drive and I got a 80GB external HDD. Double awesome ya! Cost $119 including casing. Kinda burn a hole in the pocket but isn't that bad considering 4 people owe me a total sum of $200.

And what's up with the slow network? Bloody hell. Aren't they suppose to fix it by now? I know the earthquake shook everything up but my dad pay for the service and the ISP isn't giving it. FUCKING FIX IT QUICKLY! Do you know how fucked up it feels to wait for a 1 minute clip of porn for so long. By second or third clip, I'd get turn off by the long wait and rather go built an empire instead. FIX IT!

And I don't get why it's so freakin' difficult to go for a decent outing with some of my cliques. It's always over promising but under delivered.

And there seem to be more reader at my blog page then expected. They just don't tag. Maybe they're shy. TAG DAMMIT! TAG!

And, well, you're not suppose to start a sentence with an and.

Fenderson out...

Firozi's 19

2006-12-26T18:33:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19th Firozi!

May your hopes, wishes and dreams come true man. Hope you did enjoy your birthday bash with your family and ITE mates.

Finally, 5n1 cliques are all 19 years old. I'm hitting the big 2 soon.

Fenderson out...

A Farewell Dinner

2006-12-26T17:36:00.000+08:00

These are the pictures we took at Raffles Marina Country Club. We had out dinner there. Christmas dinner for them but more of a farewell dinner for us. All apologies 'cos I'm not use to cam whoring. Oh well, if Shakir and Samir can start listening to Beyonce and Shakira, why can't I start cam whoring. Urghh, ok let's not.

Introducing, the attachment students: Miss Punk Rocker & Mr Grunge

Always wanted to be a sky pirate

Welcome to my crib. These are my yachts.

The ISS people. From left; Alvin, Wei Ming, Stanley, Vijay, Jamie, Me, Lala, Jeniffer.

Me, Wei Ming, Alvin, Lala.

Cutting a volcano-shaped chocalate cake.

Me and the bar code guy, Stanley

Two thumbs up, we got cert.

It has been great. Thanks to everyone who made in happen,

Fenderson out...

Bye PFSSG

2006-12-23T19:58:00.000+08:00

My PFSSG era has ended. Despite the constant bitching about my attacment, it weren't completed without great memories.

Biggest thank to Alvin, Steven and especially to Lala.

I'll save the stories for some other time else I'll go emo and cry and cut myself.

Then I remembered that I'm grunge, not emo but still choose to tell it some other time.

Fenderson out...

One Long Entry

2006-12-21T08:32:00.000+08:00

Went back home yesterday after work, expecting to get to play Caeser and build an empire with strong armies, high income and a big trading port but that didn't happen. Dad gotta involve me with a discussion regarding my siblings future and it turn out to be the suckiest thing for the week.

See, both my siblings just got their N level result so they gotta pick their courses. My brother with a-lil-bit-higher-than-average-result had a hard time deciding. He wanted to take on the biz course but my dad is totally oppose of his sons to take on a course that lead to a job that you'll be stuck in the office all day long. Shocking thing is, my brother, who spend his days at home in front of the computer killing bad guys, doesn't like IT stuff. Applied Health and Sciences courses are pretty ridiculous for Nitec so it's a big no no too. So it all narrowed down to engineering courses.

This gonna be a long entry and I'm trying my best to summarise the event. I'm typing this during work hour mind you. Stop for a moment, try to digest then carry on. Don't wanna read on then fuck off.

Anyway, my brother already selected the courses he wanted from the first choice till down to the 10th choice. Wasn't easy. I'm sure you faced that before. The dilemma shit all that was sure torturing. My dad talk through his choices saying that most courses he pick aren't good (as in low pay, co. hiring foreigners instead etc). During the whole speech, I was observing my brother whose eyes first turned red, followed by head hang low then covered his face then then then, he brokedown!

Shit! Let's digest the story first. If it's dull, then fuck off.

I know why he cried. I've been there. He was frustrated and don't know what to do. So with my help, my dad manage to write down up to his 6th choice. My brother choose the rest himself, unwillingly. The worsest part of all is, his top few courses are all somewhere in the west or north side. He gotta endure the ridiculous long journey for 2 years, if he's selected there that is. Me, as the eldest, impossible not to feel bad.

*Sigh*

Moving on to my sis. Let me put it in the nicest way, her result is way-below-average . Only can take up courses with "Completed N Level" and those courses blow. Whoever came up with these courses deserve a barbarian great double axe across the skull. Anyway, her choices of courses are ultimately limited and she don't wanna retake her N. My dad did some serious thinking and finally came up with the arrangement of choices. Where ever she may end up, I hope that's the best for her.

Almost there.

I kinda blame on my dad too. He gave us the whole speech on how fucking tough the future is in the working world. It screwed up my mind and I'm scared. Then I remembered, I'm doing good for my Wireless Tech course and will be taking my diploma after NS.

All the best to me.

Urgh, recalling and typing this entry drain me away. Y'know, like Kryptonite. Yeah.

When will my Foo Fighters T-shirt gonna arrive?!

Fenderson out...

Bye Bye Birdie

2006-12-17T20:11:00.000+08:00

Roses are red

Violets are blue

Only left 1 week

Of attachment

I know that doesn't rhyme a single bit but I don't give a damn 'cos I'm too excited baby! YEAHH! In your face, you full duck, I mean, you dull fuck 3 months attachment.

And I lost my mullet 'cos the barber is stupid.

Fenderson out...

Shakir's 19

2006-12-16T20:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY SHAKIR!

May your hopes dreams and wishes come true. Hope you like the surprise party man!

The white stuff is the whip cream. Let live and grunge on!

Fenderson out...

I Don't Know!

2006-12-11T20:56:00.000+08:00

I LOVE MY 5.1 SOUND SYSTEM BABY!

My balcony is now a super mini club without the clubbing furnishing. Boo~

Blasting trance all day long. Hope the neighbours can hear it.

My sister wanted to use the computer but I told her to shut up. SHUT UP!

If you can read this then this font size isn't tiny enough.

Fenderson out...

Broom Game

2006-12-06T08:45:00.000+08:00

I don't know what's the game called but lets called it the Broom Game for now. So, tje grungies were at Samir's place yesterday night and we played the broom game. How's it played?

An individual gotta hold up a broom up and turn himself 20 rounds while facing up. After 20 rounds, place the broom on the floor and do 3 jumping jacks and jump over the broom. Sounds easy? Not really.

Shakir was the only person who completed it perfectly. Bani did a very unique jumping jacks after the 20 rounds. I collapsed like a tree after doing 5 turns for the first try and 10 turns for second. Samir? Well, Samir hit the back of his head on the wall and puked after the game and showed it (his puke) to us. It was a puddle of brownish sustance with some red stuff. Gotta be the potato chips and maybe a lil bit and pieces of egg prata he had earlier.

Before we left his place at around 0200hrs, I wanna go pee first but Samir gotta puke again so me and Shakir go pee at the street. Ok not street exactly but at a drain surrounded by some bushes. I pee-ed a lot and it stinks, according to Shakir that is.

Had a last stick before heading home.

Fenderson out...

1st

2006-12-01T09:57:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday http://www.flickeringwhitelights.blogspot.com

You're 1 year old finally. I wanna buy a cake for you with a candle on it but that won't happen cos' you're to young to eat a cake.

Here are some not-so-frequently-ask FAQs.

Q. Why 'flickeringwhitelights'?
A. I was creating this blog page 1 day and can't decide what url to give it. Took me some time to decide then it came while I was pooping in the toilet and the light started to flicker. Then eureka, flickeringwhitelights it is.

Q. Why Funeral For Fenderson?
A. I was a fan of Funeral For a Friend back then. Change the title and there you have it.

Q. Why Fenderson?
A. I'm a big fan of Friends. In the sitcom they said something about Smoky Smokerson (a smoker) and Pervy Perverson (a pervert). Me? I'm Fendy Fenderson.

Q. Why is it always black & white?
A. 'Cos simplicity never run out of style.

Q. Who are those people in the picture?
A. That's the Foo Fighters. Centre front guy is Dave Grohl (vocalist & guitarist), left guy is Chris Shiflett (guitarist), right guy is Nate Mendel (bassist) and centre back guy is Taylor Hawkins (drummer).

Q. Your blog page is impressive. You must be good in HTML. Can you do a blog page for me?
A. Thank you. Nah, I'm not that really good in HTML. I stole lotsa codes in fact. I'll be happpy to create a blog page for you with a price to it. Y'know me. I love money more than creating a blog page.

Q. Your blog page sucks.
A. Fuck off. That's not even a question. Stop visiting than.

Q. My blog page is infinity times better than yours.
A. What? Are we having a competition here? Fuck off. You ain't winning anything and again, that's not a question.

Q. Why do you sound so happy for this entry?
A. Why shouldn't I? I just received my pay, it's Friday and I'm left with 3 weeks more for attachment. Whoohoo!

Fenderson out...

I Smell Fries

2006-11-29T14:21:00.000+08:00

Last week was a horrible one for me. Lala was stationed at warehouse leaving me at helpdesk alone. There's nothing much to do at helpdesk so, I turned to youtube and it became my best friend. Today Lala is back at helpdesk with me temporarily but she's taking a nap at the moment. Dammit!

Lost my ATM card. Didn't actually lost it but I kinda left it in the cash deposit machine. Yeah I can be that careless. I wasn't that worried at first 'cos it's in the deposit machine. How can someone withdraw from there and they probably can't guess my PIN number. Then somethng struck me and I remembered that you can transfer cash from account to account. Almost screamed my filthy lungs out when that came to me. So what did I do? I called POSB and check with them. Thank God nothing is missing. Make a new card at Jurong Point after work. Queue took 1 hour. For the first time I took 61 from Bukit Batok and the journey took 2 hours to get to my place. So I'm careless and kinda dumb too.

My family going to Indonesia next January for Hari Raya Haji. My dad wanna help out with the slaughtering at the mosque there. I don't get my old man sometimes. What's the difference in helping out the mosque here and overseas? Maybe he wanna know how Indonesian sheeps/lambs/cows behave before they get slaughtered. Yea, so the idea is kinda dull so I'm not tagging. This morning my mum give me the whole speech on how I put friends first before family. It's not like that mum. It's just that travelling with you guys is just a big bore. And to Indonesia? I mean, c'mon. I've been there a couple of times and getting sick of that place. My dad with his love of the kampong lifestyle & appreciating nature. What are we? Beavers?

It's 1500hrs. I got writer's block and it's time to smoke.

Fenderson out...

I Hope You Never See Me Wind Up

2006-11-20T11:55:00.000+08:00

Lala is at the warehouse at the moment. Pretty bored since I got no one to irritate. Decided to blog then.

Anyway, I wasn't planning to tell this but here goes. During the fasting month, my mom got so freaking mad at me that she decided not to give me anymore allowance, not to wake me up in the morning for work, etc. Basically, she won't do what a normal mum would do for her son. I, as a normal human who still need parents support, of course bothered by the whole thing, especially the financial part. Yes, I'm having attacment. Yes, I do get paid but it's still isn't enough.

By the way, she was mad over a pair of sandal. Yup, I wouldn't believe it myself if I'm gonna read this entry 10 - 20 years from now. She told me to get a new pair of sandal for Hari Raya. I don't see any purpose to get a new pair since the current one still usable. She insist, I insist stronger, I lost. The situation was more dramatic then what you're reading here.

This morning during breakfast, she asked me whether I have money for my meal, etc. Being an egoistic person, I said yes. Then she goes on saying how she doesn't like me borrowing cash from anyone.

What the hell was that all about mom? First you don't wanna give me cash and now you asked about it. Cash in my account is slowly depleting and I've to wait till the 30th for it to be replanish. I bet you have no idea on that. You rather splash your cash on your daughter, who is almost good for nothing besides doing house work and blaming me when the computer is fucked, then both of your fully potential and a little bit too independant sons. Don't know whether I'm talking sense anymore so I'm gonna stop here and go back to Foo Fighters on youtube.

Fenderson out...

Why Do I Wake Up Every Day?

2006-11-16T14:22:00.001+08:00

I wake up everyday to go to work. I go to work 'cos i can't leave Lala alone in this ridiculous place and I love the money. When weekends arrive, I wake up for my friends, the entertaiment and de-strees myself at the same time. When Monday comes, I'll be alive and kicking. When Thurday comes, I'll cry out for weekends. When Friday comes, I'll sleep super late just so that the day will last longer. Rinse and repeat. When December 22nd comes, I'll appreciate life like I never appreciate it before by, erm, I don't know, playing games and hanging out till late playing taiti maybe. And I'm considering making a BBQ pit gathering on the last week of the year, but the thought of lack of people turning up just brings me down.

Y'know they say that before you die, your life will flash before your vary eyes. Well, I suppose that can be true. Life is like a movie. In the end, make sure that it is worth watching.

Fenderson out...

Are You There?

2006-11-13T08:52:00.000+08:00

Has been some time since i last blogged. nothing much happened i guess.

Went to DXO last friday and busted lotsa cash on that day. finished a newly bought pack of ciggies. Damn! Kissed by a moth while playing taiti. Ok, not literally kissed but it flew straight to my lips and i was forced to blow off the sprite i was holding in my mouth. Took a nap, and i drooled.

Went to Cikgu's place on saturday. Wasn't as happening as previous year, but that's ok i guess. Cikgu is always cool. Michael Jackson in Thriller video clip and Chris Tucker always remind me of him. "Cikgu, sorry eh" as i said. To those who i owe $6.25, please pass me your account number so i can pass the cash through the ATM.

We're reaching to the end of the damn attachment. Can't fuckin' wait.

I want Guitar Hero 2.

There Is Nothing Left To Lose as much as there is nothing left to say.

Fenderson out...

Done & Done

2006-11-08T08:47:00.000+08:00

Headed to Yana's place yesterday to 'repair' her computer. Did it within an hour plus. There's power leakage somewhere at her CPU so I was shocked several times. I'll spare the rest of the detail on how exactly I repair it 'cos it'll bore the crap out of you.

Apologies to Yana and family for causing the trouble and apologies for not being able to stay longer to figure out how to connect your wireless device to the internet.

Thank you God and my uncle for the guidance.

My hands are clean once again.

Fenderson out...

Blank

2006-11-06T20:14:00.000+08:00

I'm in deep shit. Last saturday, I went for raya visiting with my secondary school mates, which was awesome by the way. So when we were at Yana's place, I opened up her CPU to show her where does her potential network card should be slot in. With the CPU opened, I took the oppurtunity to teach her some other component. Took of the RAM, explain to her, slot it back. Took out the UNSLOTTED/UNPLUGGED (gotta emphasise on this one) sound card, explain to her, screw it back in. Fix everthing back as usual without testing it first. Huge mistake there.

Here's where the catastrophe starts. Went to JB on Sunday. Received a call from Yana saying her CPU emitting beeping sound and nothing displayed on her monitor. I came out with some solutions and of course it didn't work. And that's where when i fell in the deep shit. Told my uncle on the issue. He said 3 -5 beeping means component is not inserted correctly or faulty. I pray it's not the latter one.

So what's the plan now? Heading to her place again tomorrow and see what I can do. My uncle will be helping me via phone if i need help. If nothing can't be solve still, I hope my uncle can do me another big favour by fixing it.

Dear God, sorry for the constant complaint on how dull my life is. Please guide me through this problem. I couldn't feel more responsible. Grant me strength.

Fenderson out...

Pimped My PC

2006-10-29T23:18:00.000+08:00

Busted my Hari Raya collection and salary on upgrading my computer.

From Nvidia 6200 SE to Nvidia 7950 GT
From 512Mb RAM to 1Gb RAM
Total cost: $635

Selling of my used graphic card and 512Mb RAM (2 256MB RAM).

Most wouldn't understand what I just babbled about 'cept Shaquet that is. Eh? Eh? EH?

Fenderson out...

100th Entry

2006-10-29T02:20:00.000+08:00

I drove. I fuckin' drove! Haha! It's fuckin' awesome man. Dad rented a Mitsubishi car last Thursday for Raya visiting. I'm bad with car models so got didn't took notice and it was on manual transmission. I drove from my place to Tampines. Dad guided me of course. Noticed that his right hand was always on the handbrake getting ready to give it a pull if I'm about the hit something. But that didnt happened. Stalled twice. -.-"

Dad rented a Toyota car earlier to continue with our Raya visiting. Automatic transmission this time. Only drove from somewhere north to Bedok. First attmpt on the expressway (BKE). Isn't that difficult as i thought considering the traffic was smooth and pretty spacious but the need for speed was always there. Gotta stick to 80km/h though. -.-"

I'm too worn out to carry on.
Working on Monday. Fuck!
Pay day coming soon. Yeah!
Good night.

Fenderson out...

Selamat Hari Raya

2006-10-24T20:58:00.000+08:00

Selamat hari raya to all muslims who might be reading this.

Alas, the first day of hari raya ended. Only visited 2 houses, my grandmother on my mom's side and my eldest uncle on my dad's side. not many families were there compared to last few years so the vibe isnt really there. this conclude the hari raya visiting for today.

so anyway, this morning i left my songkok in bus 61 while i was making my way to the mosque for prayers. if anyone found it, probably the grungies, please return it to me. it's black, it can be flatten and it's the size of my head. Thanks.

met my cousin on my mom's side. she's 19, the same age as i am. the first sentence/question she shot out was "so, you have a girlfriend already?"

met my cousin on my dad's side. she's 19, the same aga as i am. the first sentence/question she shot out was "so, where's your girlfriend?"

Hhmmm...

Fenderson out...

!

2006-10-19T23:36:00.000+08:00

I was given a task to reformat 3 CPUs alone. did everything taught. it was a crazy procedure to follow. did it anyway. just when i thought everything went fine, but it didnt. something screwed up. Fuck! Nevermind. lesson learnt. Work is still a boring shit hole.

Saw my dad drove a mercedes recently so i thought he borrowed/ rented it for the hari raya visiting. turns up that that car only acted as a transportation for him to carry big heavy furnishing stuff. guess we gotta take public transport. its already bad enough that i dread visiting and the thought of taking public transport with family just makes it worst. Plus it's really warm to be in the baju kurung all day long. Urgh! i'm not looking towards hari raya a single bit. Except going visiting with friends.

Speaking about going visiting with friends, im sorry to say that the likelyness of me driving will be very slim. Dad didnt manage to rent/borrow a car, I'm still under the P plate thus almost impossible for me to rent one, and i've not driven for almost 3 months and hardly got time for my own driving revision.

my mom doubt my driving capability. i gotta emphasise this one more time. I dont fucking need anyone to doubt me. i didnt earn that bloody plastic card which people call "Class 3 Driving License" to be doubt at. and mom, why give me all the cash for my practical driving lessons if you know that you gonna doubt me eventually? If any of you think im gonna crash into something, then dont be my passenger. simple as that. that if i gotta drive. if not, maybe its time for me to melt that plastic card.

The Grungies gotta be the greatest pact ever.

Fenderson out...

Bani & Suhaimi 19th

2006-10-16T08:30:00.000+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday To Bani & Suhaimi!

May your hopes, dreams and wishes come true. Stop bugging me with the 7 seaters. I see what I can do.

Fenderson out...

Farisha's 19

2006-10-13T20:51:00.000+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday To Farisha!

Glad you found someone. Pass your driving license quickly. May your hopes, dreams and wishes come true.

Somebody new misses you more than i do.

Fenderson out...

Blink And You Miss

2006-10-12T12:05:00.000+08:00

0555hrs - Handphone alarm rang, woke up, move to the couch, continued sleeping.
0625hrs - Mom freaked out when she still see me sleeping.
0630hrs - Mom still nagging. I left for work.
0645hrs - Reached transport pick-up point.
0655hrs - Realised that i miss my transport so i gotta take public transport.
0830hrs - Reached work. 30 mins late.

This can't carry on. Coincidently, Lala missed her bus too. But she managed to reached work on time considering she stays just beside Tuas (Jurong). Dammit!!!

There's a guy in the train who sat and slept at the connector between cabin 1 and 2. That's fucking grunge man. Gotta try that some day.

Weekends approaching.

Still have 2 months and a week left till we're free from this hell hole.

Fenderson out...

3rd Week

2006-10-10T15:58:00.000+08:00

3rd week of attachment. Today seems to be a slow day. Fell asleep during work. Lala and me took turn to sleep.

Farisha called yesterday. Very glad to hear her voice after so long of not being able to meet her up. Both busy with our own stuff. I mean, seriously busy. Hope to meet her up real soon. Happy 21st Birthday to Diana.

Fenderson out...

Bitch In The Bus.

2006-10-06T12:21:00.000+08:00

Friday
it's lunch time at the moment. me and lala fasting so we just stay put in the room with some others.

i dont get it why some individuals simply cant keep their complains to themselves and be mature about it. i was waiting for my transport to work earlier this morning. once it arrived, i got in, shut the door, take a seat, place my bag on the floor, turn my ipod volume to max and get comfortable. it was playing Cake - I Will Survive at that point. few minutes later i saw this bitch, who was 1 seat away from me, waved to get my attention. so i took out my right ear piece and she said "can you lower down the volume?". FUCK!!!. i swear i could have shove my middle finger up her nostrils and tell her to shut up. it's already bad enough that she's giving the body language of not wanting others to sit beside her. now she want me to lower down the volume. why dont u go take a nap just like the others huh? stupid bitch in the bus.

one of our supervisor, alvin, is down with dengue. hope he'll recover quickly.

bought a new converse bag for 30 bucks. Sweeet-uh!

Last week, i used to complaint a lot about attachment. 2 weeks later, i got over it and pity my classmates who gotta work on saturday and earn 50 bucks lesser than i do. Know what i else i pity? i pity those who can't set their priority right and i pity those who're already 19 but still can't differentiate between what's right and what's not. most of all i pity those who don't appreciate music, like the bitch in the bus.

Fenderson out...

Results

2006-10-04T13:18:00.000+08:00

At work.
i was gonna BLOG then was interrupted by a phone call.

Me: "Hello, helpdesk."
User: "Hello, I'm having some problem with (insert technicallity words here which i usually don't understand)."
Me: "Ok, would you like to blog, i mean log in your problem?"

do you get the situation? pretty embarrassing. fuck it if you dont.

so anyway, here's my result.

Customer Service - S
Mobile Application Development with J2ME - B
Wireless Network Security - B
Wireless WAN and Mobile Communication - B

pretty neat eh. total gpa is 2.714. coincidently same with lala despite our different grades. it's a 0.2 jump from my previous gpa. isnt good enough to go poly i guess.

anyway, im sure most of you seen my partially torn converse bag. yesterday, it totally got rip out. very sad man. i've been carrying that bag since sec4 (2003) and something got caught in the torn part and rip it off. fuck. heart felt heavy as i dispose it away. searching for a replacement for my grunge bag. bye bye bag.

Fenderson out.

Chelobateh!!

2006-10-02T15:54:00.000+08:00

hey ther! i'm bored! freaking freaking bored bored!! aniwae,tis is not fendy..yar i noe! but i'm only testin ma bloggin skills...ON HIS BLOGS!! update;now in ISS r0om doin pathetic helpdesk werk...i'm gettin bored,tired,strezz up,sleepy as usual! haha! weL,wat can i sae..fendy's sleepy t0o wakaka....!!we jz left another 1 an half hr m0R to .... zapppp....fr0m tis r0om! yohar..!! wait tiL we hear the chime..OFF WE GO!! ther's no delay..

our supervisor not here todae..supposingly we R doin another part of our job...but end up seatin & stuck in tis r0om ONE MORE TYM!!! suck big tym..
SUMORE,steven our 2nd supervisor told uz tat he's gonna pull uz out fer project nex wik! WHICH MEANS.....haiz.....we R gonna stuck in tis r0om fer tis whole wik! wat a wik!!

update; project fer nex wik iz encryptin laptop & desktop....tats gonna B fun hands-on task! i wont B sleepy i guess..hehe!

RAye's comin s0on..fendy been helpin me wit aL the searchin on de net..fer white heels!! oh my.. i didnt exoect it to B s0o...hard t0o find...but never mind, i've stiL got another 2 wiks pluz..to find tat godamn heels!! aniwae,tankz fer de help ya fendy!!

NEXT UPDATE: i 'm gonna buy webcam,speakers,mp3,slippers s0on!! yea! it's been a long tym since i Laz did ma shoppin...haha!! me & fendy hav done aL de surveyz..de other dae..shud B easy fer me now..cos i've got everitin in ma target!!! c0oL izinit...??!!

ok den! TiL heRe fer ma testin..weL i tink i did PERFECTLY G00D in ma bloggin..haha!!
t0o bad den..i'm gonna blog again anitym!! haha!!
TaKe Care den!

aniwae,jz add me thru ma frenster 0r even msn aite!
frenster: avrilavigne87@yahoo.com
msn: lala_lah@hotmail.com

luv lots;
-lala-
Outz...tata! dun ferget to miss call!!

Timbre

2006-10-01T03:50:00.000+08:00

woke up this morning to 10 miss calls and 6 texts. all apologies to bani and shaquet.

we headed down to Timbre earlier to catch a gig. Timbre is a pub. im not proud of going to this kinda place especially during the fasting month but i was there for the band. Page, bani's band, had a performance and as usual they did a marvelous job. jolene shared a couple of interesting facts:

1) redbull eats your bone marrow.
2) coke dissolve your bones.
3) charcoal filtered cigrattes dont give you cancer.

after the gig, we headed for madhinatul. had our meal and then proceed with taiti. made hell lotsa noise cause shaquet got a full house of 2s then this guy come down and tell us to lower down the volume. the mood went down hill from that point. from LOL (laughing out loudly) to LOS (laughing out softly). Haha, not funny, shaddup!

From the look of things now, farisha and yana gonna leave the pact really soon.
Frustrated: Maybe a little.
Sad: Yeah.
Jealous: Who wouldn't be.
Happy: For both of them.
Grunge: To the max as ever.

Fenderson out...

Yana's 19, Work Place

2006-09-27T15:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY YANA!!!

Sorry i cant get what you wanted. pass your bike license quickly ok and grunge always.

So anyway, i'm at my workplace. it's so dull here. i'm doing the helpdesk. Users call and state their problems, i log down their problems and pass it over to the technicians. Technicians deal with it, i update the log. Other than that, there's a number of people who called to find some other guys so most of the time it goes:

"Ring Ring"
Me: Hello
Caller: Hi uh can i speak to (insert name here).
Me: Ok hold on. *shout for the person*

and the cycle goes on.

But thanks to lala, she makes the job a little interesting even thought she's sleepy most of the time. Please stay awake and talk to me more!!!

We have uniforms which make us looks like factory workers.

i cant seem to reach home on time to break fast so i just pop a can of grass jelly drink and light a cigratte. very sad huh. damn you company bus.

so anyway, paulo just IM me saying that my exam results are pretty neat. gotta be the best news of the week.

going for my first ns medical check up tmr.

Fenderson out...

Some Stuff

2006-09-25T22:56:00.000+08:00

received a call from my lecturer this morning. said i got an attachment at panasonic. now the bad news is that the company is at tuas. i'll die travelling. everyday report at 8 for 3 freakin' month. well it isnt half bad compared to people who lives at boon lay and schooling at ite simei.

tmr is the 26th which mark 2 months since the day i passed my driving test, also mark 2 months since i drove. DAD! BUY ME A CAR! do i sound like a spoilt brat?

Fenderson out...

3rd Is Not Much Of A Charm

2006-09-22T20:46:00.000+08:00

Today is friday and it isnt as great as the previous one. My friday has been ruin by the news i received by my lecturer via text. Here is what he said:

"Hi effendy, sorry to inform u that u r unsuccessful with the interview. But I have send yr resume to panasonic today. awaiting their reply. Wait 4 my sms2day. Gd luck :)"

I was at tampines waiting for 15 with a bubble tea and it almost slip out of my hand once i read it.

And i responded this:

"Ok thank you. May i ask what went wrong?"

And he said:

"Sorry effendy. i also have no idea as they didnt feedback to me. They only take in (some other guy name here). dun be discourage, think positively that u have more interview experience than the rest. We learn from mistake. Panasonic is much better. Do well this time round. All the best."

yeah sure i have the more interview experince than the rest. 3 failed interview for crying out loud. how am i suppose not to get discourage? and i have no slightest idea of what the hell went wrong. how am i suppose to work on my weaknesses?

I'm sure someone is happy that i was rejected.

decided to take 8 instead and head straight for samir's place. paint his bedroom. cant say we did an excellent job but he was satisfied with it. get paid 15 bucks. everyone is happy.

so samir and shakir seen me work, my cliques seen how i organise the chalet (we organised 4 chalet already fyi) and the results turn out to be all good. why wouldnt someone hire me?

Sigh i dont wanna think too much about it.

Fenderson out...

Chalet

2006-09-21T01:55:00.000+08:00

The chalet was fuckin' awesome.

Thanks to the people who made it happened. Bani, Chui Teng, Firozi, Ilyana, Li Lin, Mei Hiang, Samir, Shakir, Suhaimi and me of course.

Thanks to those who dropped by. hope y'all had fun like we did. promise to invite y'all again next time we organise one.

Thanks to Aloha for the facilities.

cant think of anyone else to thank.

Happy 18th to Jolene

Fenderson out...

Could I Press Rewind?

2006-09-16T19:06:00.000+08:00

once again i got rejected by a company for attachment. 6 students went to an interview at high street plaza. 4 from W class (my class) and 2 from V class. 3 chinese got it, 3 malay didnt. i'm not trying to be racist here but i dont get the way that company chose the students. not to brag but among them i got the best gpa and i wasnt selected. you be the judge alright. now, im back to square one. im the only guy in class without a company to go for attachment to. still waiting for the lecturers to settle it for the last 3 of us.

but that no longer bother me. i just had one of the best friday ever. T.G.I.F. i'll start from the top.

for the first time, i went to jb with my ite cliques; peja and dayah. too bad the rest cant make it. i was half an hour late and gotta poop soon after that. sorry for the delay girls. caught an indonesian movie called Heart. thats 3 hours of my life im not getting back. the movie isnt good, the crowd was horrible, the seats stink, and the film strip melted due to over heating in the middle of the show. but that didnt spoil my day. got 2 packs of ciggs for myself and 1 for farisha. did our window shopping, bought a couple of cds, hung out at coffee bean. my usual routine but it was great. cant wait for the next trip to jb with them. hopefully more people will tag along.

on the way home from jb when farisha called. she needed a companion so we hung out at her place. she was all very hot stuff baby tonight as usual and all set to head for dxo. checked out her laptop and its very very messy. i played PS1 for a moment and we left her place. tt's all tt happened. nothing else. even though i wish it did. :-D haha sorry. finally i got a proper introduction to vanessa and tt makes full house.

from tamp, i met up with shaquet and saini and we headed to my place. played some ps2 and my bro kept on complaining how stinky saini's feet was. cant disagree to that one. soon after, bani called and we headed for madhinatul for a quick meal then headed to a void deck to play taiti. gotta say that playing taiti with 4 players isnt very much of a fun. the chances of getting a combo is very rare and even if you do have 1, it is very unlikely that the others could counter it. 'nuff bout taiti crap. we played a couple of games and shaquet won a lot and bani got all worked up. farisha called and texted me a couple of times saying how happening dxo was thath night and i was so freakin' jealous. saini left for home at 0300hrs plus. bani picked up his guitar and strum to some songs. highlight of the late hangout was when bani mocked on how mr whahahow sings. fuckin' hilarious. headed home at 0600hrs plus.

to sum everything up, i was out from 1030hrs till 0600hrs next morning. it was a hellavaday.

chalet coming up real soon. i cant barely wait. it's gonna be a blast, i hope. there's gonna be bbq, taiti, guitar, ciggies, food, ps2, skateboard, sheesha, dvd and some more stuff i cant remember.

the holidays just began and it starts too well fuckin' good.

my apologies if this entry is too long and monotonous.

Fenderson out..

MSN

2006-09-11T23:10:00.000+08:00

What's Wrong With My MSN Windows Live Messenger?

I can't login!

I'm suppose to be revising for my exam but decided to complaint instead.

Forever in debt to your priceless advice.

Fenderson out...